I miss missing you

I miss the theater during Christmas 

I miss missing you 

As I think about it, my mouth turns to a grimace 

But for as long as possible I stay on the topic of you, 

while the rain falls and I watch it outside my window 

I miss the scent of my pomegranate chapstick

And the way it used to make my stomach churn 

Where every feeling was the most drastic 

And beauty made my heart burn

Now the snow flurries 

it swirls around me

all i can hear are my worries

in front, behind, and to the side of me

And sweeps me up into blue 

Taking me back to a world unknown

where all i thought of was you

i knew everything and thought i was so grown 

When I cried for years 

lungs filled with tears